with a big black horse and a cherry tree

I went to the doctor today because I need antibiotics and they refused to see me because I didn't have my provincial health card with me. 2009...not so much fun. I also realized today that I can't afford anything. Until I get another job, it's going to be like college all over again. Basically, it will be living off of $50 a week.

As I'm writing this, apparently a plane has just crashed in Buffalo, NY :'( *sigh* 2009...you suck. This whole year has been a shit-storm. I am very sorry to see this on the news-- none of us need such tragedy now, or ever.

I'm a nervous wreck and I'm scared and slowly I'm becoming overwhelmed. I am a very strong person mentally and emotionally. Not everyone is so lucky. I will get through this, I always do because I have more lives than a cat. There is one silver lining to this dark cloud-- I will finally be able to go home. I haven't stopped moving in 3 years. Every 10 days I pack and get on a plane or a bus or in my car and I go; thousands of kilometers to work then home again. Now I can focus on allowing my soul to catch up.

I will have time to hike, photograph, knit, run, read, write poetry, journal, bake, cook, crochet, bead, scrapbook, organize, paint, code, and explore. Most of all, I'll have time to start again. I'll figure it out. I'll be 33 years old in 2 weeks. The future is friendly.

Comments

[karin]

I'm sorry you're sick and I'm sorry you got laid off and I'm sorry 2009 has been so awful. Yes you are a strong person, being able to see the silver lining in all this.

[Rose]

It's obvious how strong you are and I'm sorry you're going through this but You're not alone. I don't know about your other readers but I've been here with you for a good while.. a good 3-4 moves of this blog and such. We're all here supporting you and wishing you well.
I wish you luck and happiness on this new adventure. -hugs- And drop me a line on twitter or my blog if you need anything =)

~Rose.

[Rose]

It's obvious how strong you are and I'm sorry you're going through this but You're not alone. I don't know about your other readers but I've been here with you for a good while.. a good 3-4 moves of this blog and such. We're all here supporting you and wishing you well.
I wish you luck and happiness on this new adventure. -hugs- And drop me a line on twitter or my blog if you need anything =)

~Rose.

[Christina]

Sonja,

I'm sorry to hear about your lay off. If there is anything I can do when you get back to St. John's just drop me a line. We hope to see you on the 18th for knitting night - do you think you will be back by then? If not we'll have to schedule another one sooner. I have a ton of extra house/apartment stuff... it may colorful and not too up your ally but you are more than welcome to it to get you started on your new life in St. John's. Have a safe drive home to NL.

Christina (Stella jr on Rav)

[Sonja]

karin ~ thank-you very much :') This year has been rough...really rough but it has to get better right? I'm certain of it. Thank-you for reading and commenting despite all the negativity. I strongly believe that when I get home to St. John's, I'll have the time to really think of a plan and make good changes. I really appreciate the support.

rose ~ it has been 3-4 moves eh? There is one more move to go but this time I'm bringing over my archives so it will be seamless. Thank-you for the support. Lately I've been overwhelmed by the support I've received by folk on the internets. I truly believe there are good people, like yourself, on the other side of the keyboard. I know there are, that's why I've never given up blogging.

Christina ~ thank-you Christina :) I can't wait to see everyone again. On the bright side (!) I get to be at knit night! If you're willing to part with your stuff, I would love to have it. =} I really appreciate this; honestly. I will see you soon.